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Thursday, January 17, 2013

It isn't easy being okay

I need you to try to understand that it isn't easy to be okay
Though for you it isn't difficult, I stumble for words to say
Because of something that happened to me so very long ago
I cannot begin to trust enough to let all my feelings show.

I struggle with my brokenness and my memories make me cry
Sometimes I want to sit alone even when others have stopped by
Because I'm feeling inadequate compared to all the rest
I feel I'm never doing enough even though I've done my best.

All those who had been abusing me cannot ever begin to know
The damage and the scarring their abusing started so long ago
For they  think of it like some yesterday or some moments that are past;
But I am still that little broken one asking "how long is this going to last"


  1. You're right, it's hard to pretend. I hope you have friends in your life you don't have to pretend to be ok with all of the time.

  2. The hardest thing is to smile and pretend we are okay when inside we are falling apart. Hugs.

  3. Hello "Just Me" I do have friends who I can be myself with .. but there are others who would like me to be okay already.. . I am blessed ....


    Hello "Behind the Smile" the smile when we are not okay might be making the "not okay" even worse.. why is it wrong to not smile when one is hurting inside. ?Thanks for stopping by..



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