Not only am I healing but have this interior battle about ideas and what's right
and what is necessary. I want to stay simple. yet want to finish my school.
I don't like using big language but must read words I can't pronounce. Its
such a concern. .. a worry . that in pursuring a degree it is so much not really me.
I don't know what to think of the inner battles taking place between my mind and heart.
I have no desires for the grandiose but school requires you to deal with
ideas way out there. I fear losing who I am to these words and books and ideas.
I want to stay true to what I am not become something books dictate.